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Never in my 25 years did I think those words would fall out of my mouth, yet there I was clutching at a luke warm tea, sat on a plastic chair in a circle of canada goose coats on sale smiling and nodding kind faces.

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I had never felt my heart beat so hard and fast, and in my drug fuelled state, I thought about leaving a note for my parents just in case I didn’t wake up just so they didn’t think it was suicide.

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Rehab wasn’t an option for me it was too expensive (I’d spent all my money on drugs) and would mean my family finding out that their daughter was a cocaine addict. I also had to keep up appearances, as at this point, I was working for a national newspaper.

I then stumbled upon Narcotics Anonymous, an organisationrun by recovered addicts who held free ‘meetings’ in church halls and day canada goose uk shop rehabilitation centres across the country.

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